and it goes on and on

2 more days for me to turn 19 years old. 19 years of living with ups and downs (: that's life ppl. I believe in things happens for a reason and there's always a sliver lining to it. I lost few friends and gain many more. I fought with people and make peace with 'em. I let go of my perfect Mr. right that always support me in many ways and chase the person that never catch me when I fall. I flunk testes and ace in it once while (: I taste the bitterness and the sweetness of life. But the one thing I cant deny is the ONLY people who are standing by your side without fail is family.They constantly support me throughout thick and thin, even when I felt the whole world went against me, when I believe the no one else is there and I am standing alone in the darkness. They bring light and shower me with faith along with love. Thou at times, I do feel they never really understood who am I and what are my need and wants *oh well, I am teenager with unbalance hormones and chaotic complicated life, or so I thought. I re-look at my past, and it is safe to say I am blessed for 19 years (:

The only world crisis I am having now is going thru days w/out Mr. right, oh well I am pretty much over that part anyway. I learn that people come and go even when I think he is the very one and I am madly in love with him and it is like my whole entire world revolves 360 deg around him *which is such a metaphor and oh my, I am just 19 people!  I accept the fact hes gone for good. Memories are still there for me to keep (: just because I moved on and let go doesn't mean I forget everything. I just chose happiness over sadness. Pain is inevitable but suffering is always an option. I been mourning for 3 months. I think its more the enough time to recover and adjust to the new life ahead of me.

The bigger picture is completing the degreee! oh yes, thats my new energy focus channel now. I ve an enormous plan for life in many years to come. As for kick start after degree in first class of course *next goal depends on this. I am drooling over LSE short for London School of Economic, which definitely accept ONLY best achievers throughout the globe. I even had decided which program I am interested is MSc in International Management. Such a huge plan indeed. With Allah's willing and my efforts along with family and friend's supports. Amin

And it goes on and on with a lot of exciting and unexpected things enroll in my life as Allah knows better, which I hopes to anticipate with patience, love and wisdom. May your life and mine be blessed by HIM.

The cake is too sweet, I am not a sweet tooth person thou this annoying brat next to me enjoyed it very much. Oh dearest, I love my life, embrace it everyday (: