the last straw

Ever heard of "the last straw that broke the camel's back?" This time I had mine. I can be misleading and very easily mistaken on. What can I do, when my good isn't good enough? My best intention keep making a mess of things. At times, there's not fixing it. All that is left is the lesson learned from it. I never knew my touch in people's world would cost it to crumble down & simply collide with others. The existence of  me in it seems to rather rupture the core of it. I do fall to pieces on how the person who is significant to me, thought I'm no longer worthy of one's time or attention. Yes, it beats the crap outta me. I did pause and cry. Among the biggest wrong assumption I made upon meeting you is thinking it'd be the simplest bound I ever created. Turns out to be the most complicated & messy. I sent my apologizes, for the fractures and scars I caused,  I bent admitting my flaws which I can't fix at that moment, I turn around and leave your world at ease. All I'm asking simply to get this over with, to put it behind. The way it ended is beyond messy & it dragged to the people I cared about, I adored & I admired. I never want that person to ever get hurt, I know it's unfair of me choosing to leave and making the decision for that person, I do hope he would forgive me. I know its impossible to erase my entire existence, however there's no stopping me from trying. If I could run away and start new I would. I already know how. The process of obtaining the ticket simply takes time.  In the meantime, I'll just fade away from all because I can't get it right no matter how hard I try :)