sunshine please stay

I'm up late again. Starting to actly assume I'm living in a different timezone here. Hehe. Well, the storm had subside and rainbow is shinning bright. Oh please stay this way. Thou I highly doubt it. A girl can dream right :) I had fun today. Really awesome moments. I feel my chest completely lifted and the air become clearer. I long for this day. And thanked God. It finally ends w/out any significant damage. Spending time with an old friend who happens to be an old flame. We joked all the way to my campus to his amaze, I practically replied his girlf's texts while he's driving. And feed him with McD's french fries too. He goes "My P.A with texts and feeding me too, yet I never know you can be super sweet." My reply is "Well, I can be sweeter than sugar, just don't fall in love with me." He gave me a weird kinda look and turn away. I simply smiled back. Honest confession here, I had never been out of relationship from the very young age of 14y/o. The longest I stayed w/out a significant other is 8 months. Doesn't really count thou since I swing around way a lot. Hence, my dependency seems rather clingy to the person I'm involve with and surprisingly I'm highly devoted. As age hike up, I  question the meaning of love, over and over again. Do you know how hard is it to actually try to squeeze two entirely different world into one?  Yes, I do turn green seeing happy couples, who wouldn't right. Its in human nature wanting to belong somewhere & don't get me started on Maslow's theory here :D All I'm laying out is love knocks your heart and we melt away. Eventhou, it's the wrong person or at the wrong timing. I believe there's reasons for it. God simply bumped us with the wrong person so that when we meet the right one we appreciate them more, so that we be better in judging someone's value, so that we will always realize we're just weaklings who seek for HIS blessing, so that be able to experience things that some didn't have the chance to, so that we realize that the choice isn't in our hands. Don't take long in suffering as the end is surely near, we might never know whether we be able to grasp tomorrow or breathe another minute. Will love be forever lasting w/out the bound connecting both of us? Or are we too great to seek love from humans when the love towards Him still beyond our reach? A question I tend to ask myself lately. Life is hard, I admit that & I'm fill with flaws and with a lot to redeem too. The one thing, I never forget is never to give up on His blessing. He knows best :)