sorrow whisper

I'm back to basic. Pouring out words here. Maybe it's nothing, maybe his whole world is against me in his life. My existence, shaken his whole world. Maybe I'm too dark to linger around his pure white world. I'm struggling, I'm battling just to keep me breathing the same air as him. I love him to the deepest of my soul. Something that some people just can't grasp. If I could leave everything & start over w him, I'd take the chance. My heart shatter a little more yesterday, I'm puzzled where did I go wrong? With everything at the edge of the cliff, I couldn't risk it. He has his own battle to fight, survival of his future. I want to be the one who carry the burden, not add in to it. Am I strong enough to do that? I'm praying to Allah the strength I needed be granted to me. I want to be the surgeon that cuts you open, that fixes all of life’s mistakes. I want to be the house that you were raised in, the only place that you feel safe. I want to be a shower in the morning that wakes you up and makes you clean. Right now, I know I’m just the breeze you feel brushing thru your body wrapping you in cold night air. Will we make it pass everything because I can't start over w/out you.. Everything will go hazy as tears keeping falling & my shivering won't come to an end. Please stay..