Maybe words can never describe who I'm or how I really feel. Or it is maybe I'm not good w words. My only hope and wish are to stay.. Stay w the man I love, to cherish him, to wake up w a smile on my face knowing I'm his and he's mine in life. Me & him. We're so transparent. We see thru each other like a glass wall. I learn the hard way, honesty and truth is the best policy. The only way to make things work. So I came clean w every in the past. He embrace who I'm becoming not who I was in the dark days. For that, I truly am grateful. I know forever is a deep word to be using. In fact, it's an adjective no human in sane mind would use to describe this temporary world of the living. However, I wanna spend my breathing days on earth w him. Simply because of my unmeasurable feeling towards him. I never stop believing in this dream thou it's us against all odds. Odds that never seems to stop finding us. After several encounters, I lay my trust in him. I admit we did had some difficulties, no relationship is ever perfect, yes? His anger and temper has the power to shatter me into pieces. And how his possessive nature straggle my essence. On my part, it had always been on my questionable loyalties and how misleading I'm, not to mention how heartless I became and layers of ego & pride I built. However, he's the man who won't give up no matter how tough the situation is, no matter how harsh the odds are. He crumbled down my walls. He discovered my true emotion and accept me to be his pride and joy, backing me up throughout all storm and shelter me from any harsh attack. I learn the meaning of loyalty and trust. I love him including all the flaw just like he did on loving me as whole even my dark side. I always hope my past stays dark in some corner of a box. Never to see the light of day again.
Your presence always disturb the peace I've in me. I never really quite get why, you never really move on from our ending. It's rude, but we're nothing except for match made in soaring fire, that's the truth. Your meeting w the man I deeply love cause turmoil in him yesterday. Words that escaped your lips caused doubts start to root in his heart and clouded his mind. My tears drop again. When will you ever leave me to my happiness? Just because my story is now colored w bright joyful love, and yours are cloudy due to your failure to keep walking isn't mine to be blame on. I took that blame long ago. I swallow the slander you threw at me w patience and prayers. Fyi, I didn't know chatting w a guy as friends was consider cheating, so what does playing guitar along w a girl singing on campus ground is called then? Cheated w 7 guys, I must be really amazing, even I didn't know that. I was surrounded by darkness w people's negativity on because of you, people never really get my side of the story, do they? Through weeks, my silent tears keep flowing. The worst you had was enormous sympathy and support from people in your life along w questions that you answered proudly pointing me as the culprit. All I'm asking for is let me have him in my life peacefully. I did my time in sorrow. Why do I've to suffer again when I'm happily changed to a person who is willing to settle down and committed to my man. My favorite actor from my favorite series is still someone you admired. Those significant things to me, you still noted. My ring? God knows where is it by now. The pictures I captured is still saved and you never stop babbling on pride and ego and what's needed and wanted. It's getting old. Frankly, you'd just suffer more if this keep going on than I would. Maybe people are right, you be happier w/out me in your life. Think about that, be w the lady who constantly loving you. Let this slip through the cracks of life. Thou, if you wanna keep it, my only suggestion would be stop messing w what's mine. Don't ruin this for me. I need him & I want him. And he's all I ever need, it's like fish needed water to just survive. He give me so much more than love. He provides me w strength and confidence in my misery days. He carves a smile and let laughter escape my lips. He's the man who never give up on me and genuinely loving me w every ounce of love in him.
If forever did exist, it's only w him, I wanna spend it.
Your presence always disturb the peace I've in me. I never really quite get why, you never really move on from our ending. It's rude, but we're nothing except for match made in soaring fire, that's the truth. Your meeting w the man I deeply love cause turmoil in him yesterday. Words that escaped your lips caused doubts start to root in his heart and clouded his mind. My tears drop again. When will you ever leave me to my happiness? Just because my story is now colored w bright joyful love, and yours are cloudy due to your failure to keep walking isn't mine to be blame on. I took that blame long ago. I swallow the slander you threw at me w patience and prayers. Fyi, I didn't know chatting w a guy as friends was consider cheating, so what does playing guitar along w a girl singing on campus ground is called then? Cheated w 7 guys, I must be really amazing, even I didn't know that. I was surrounded by darkness w people's negativity on because of you, people never really get my side of the story, do they? Through weeks, my silent tears keep flowing. The worst you had was enormous sympathy and support from people in your life along w questions that you answered proudly pointing me as the culprit. All I'm asking for is let me have him in my life peacefully. I did my time in sorrow. Why do I've to suffer again when I'm happily changed to a person who is willing to settle down and committed to my man. My favorite actor from my favorite series is still someone you admired. Those significant things to me, you still noted. My ring? God knows where is it by now. The pictures I captured is still saved and you never stop babbling on pride and ego and what's needed and wanted. It's getting old. Frankly, you'd just suffer more if this keep going on than I would. Maybe people are right, you be happier w/out me in your life. Think about that, be w the lady who constantly loving you. Let this slip through the cracks of life. Thou, if you wanna keep it, my only suggestion would be stop messing w what's mine. Don't ruin this for me. I need him & I want him. And he's all I ever need, it's like fish needed water to just survive. He give me so much more than love. He provides me w strength and confidence in my misery days. He carves a smile and let laughter escape my lips. He's the man who never give up on me and genuinely loving me w every ounce of love in him.
If forever did exist, it's only w him, I wanna spend it.
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